For the last couple weeks I have been experiencing unusual stomach issues. What I thought to may have been a virus turned out to actually be a bacterial infection.
My tummy has invited me to take it easy the last 10 days and I really chose to honor that calling and follow my stomach, and my heart. In this process however, I asked how will everything get done? Who is going to do fill in the blank? How will he/she/they ever get along without my help? How many of us ask these questions on an ongoing basis mentally to ourselves if not out loud to others?
I have been reminded by spirit many times this week of one of the most loving things my honey has ever said to me… and it was really hard to hear all at the same time.
I believe that I may have been planning an event from top to bottom and ensuring that all the details of the event were covered. He asked me if he could help. I declined the gracious and loving gesture knowing that I had everything under control. He then told me in his low-loving tone: "You're not leaving me any space to love you." WHAT?!?! I paused for a moment to take that in. Up until this point, I was the one creating and maintaining what I thought a relationship should look like. I was the one that took care of everything. I was the one that placed myself in the position of being needed. That is when it hit me… there is a difference between being needed and being wanted. My honey is the best at loving me in languages that I totally understand. Yet when we first got together I was taking the same path as in previous relationships and expecting different results. “If I do everything and make my honey really happy, then he will never leave.” Well, I don't know about you, but I have lifted the hood of that belief more than once only to find myself exhausted, burned out, and bitter.
I am beginning to feel a lot better now and had a craving for some potato wedges. I jumped in the car and went to our local fast food place that serves these sliced season-salted pieces of deliciousness. I was reminded while waiting for my "hot fresh potato wedges" that there is a Creative Intelligence in the universe working on my behalf, for my good. I was also reminded that when I step into alignment with my good, it comes about very quickly. I get what I ask for. As we say at Amor "Heaped up, pressed down, and running over!”
I know this might sound silly but it really works. I want "hot fresh potato wedges." That is what I said to the universe on my way to get what my tummy requested. I pulled in, placed my order, and was greeted with the most amazing words at the pickup window "We don’t have enough to fill the order and it will take 5 minutes, are you willing to wait for the hot fresh order to come up?”
YES!!!
Take a moment this week to pause, honor your "soul self", and allow others some space to love you.
Trust me, it all gets done!
I love you
Rev. Allen
