What are you holding, and what is the unwillingness to pick up the joy of the moment?
First of all I know today through my work with Ho’oponopono that whatever comes to me is mine to heal, clean and clear. I was speaking with a friend the other day about feelings and friendship. I know as we make our way in any relationship we bump up against ourselves from time to time. I often make the joke that I get along with my family beautifully because we live on different coasts. My truth today is that I know when someone brings something to me and asks for treatment or energy work I give thanks for the opportunity to heal that within myself, knowing that once it is cleared in the mind of one it is clear in the mind of the whole. ONE MIND.
So I meditated on friendship and what kind of friend am I?
I have had the honor over the last year to bump up against a couple of my closest friends and I know in the past I might have handled it a different way. In the ones that are coming to mind I sat and talked with them and shared what was coming up for me and that I needed time to process. It was my intention to resolve this and continue on in the friendships knowing that this was growth and taking us to a new level of love and understanding with each other. I still needed time to work this out. I continued to show up and love and after a few months I realized that the friendship was more loving than ever. We had made it through and our friendship was transformed. On a road trip recently I looked over at this one friend and stated I love who we are and that we were willing to stand in the friendship and let go of the past anger to get to the JOY of today.
A few days later I received a call from a friend who wanted to ask some questions about our friendship, and asked me some pointed questions. I love the opportunity to look at myself and who I am so I took this on with deep feelings. After sometime I realized that we had brushed up against something as well and that I had pulled back to look at who I was in the friendship and what my expectations where. This time of pulling back had really hurt my friend. I also took the time to look at where we were today, and I was so very happy to have this friend in my life and the love and light they give. I realized that they had been hurt in the process and that was never my intention, yet I needed to honor my need to look at my part in all of this.
It was in that moment that I realized how many times I have held on to past hurt and missed the JOY of the present moment. I had Chosen to stay in the hurt rather than remember why I loved you in the first place and why I love at all. Am I loving you for what you give me or am I loving you because I recognize the divine in you? In the clearing and cleaning process have I really laid down the past and picked up the present of the NOW moment? If not, did that have anything to do with my friend or everything to do with my thought process? And, knowing how the law works, was I not just inviting more of the same hurt in?
Today I recognize that we all have our journey to take, and how much I love walking with my friends. I also know that the relationship I have with myself is most important and that I am responsible for my happiness, and love. Placing this on someone else is placing that outside of the divine in me as me. I also realized that I am a great friend and I am willing to stand for friendship, love, and in order to do that I have to love who I see in the mirror.
At that moment I realized the joy of living in the NOW!!!! For NOW is all we really have.
I love you Allen
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