I sometimes think of life as a reality show; like the reality show, Survivor. I begin to think "You know, wouldn't it be nice sometimes if we could vote some folks off the island?" I think that is one of the reason so many folks are attracted to programs on television. It gives us the chance to live our lives through someone else. Have you ever had that friend who did all the crazy things you always wanted to do yet were to afraid, to reluctant, to .... to do them?
The thought of voting someone off the island reminds me of my early days in recovery from drugs and alcohol. Many times I would look at the world as "doing me wrong" and so often I would fix them by leaving, quitting the job, or moving. No matter where I went, there I was. It seemed at the time that only the names and faces had changed yet life was the same. GUESS WHAT, it was because the thing that needed changing was me and my attitude!
Today I find that when I want to vote someone off, out, or feel "wronged" it is an opportunity for "growth or change" I know, I know,.. everyone's favorite words. "Why oh why must I be the one to change here?" "If so and so would just do that it would all be alright!" Thought that might feel true for the moment but the truth is that in that moment, I am giving my power away to someone else. I am allowing someone's "being" to effect me.
One of the greatest tools I picked up in recovery was "resentments would kill me." Today I look on it with softer eyes, resentments today grow into "dis-ease" within the body. I love reading Louise Hays' You can Heal your Life. I can't tell you how many times I have looked to see what the ailment was and found it to be on point with what was going on in my life. Our bodies are road maps to what we are holding onto. Today I know it is of the utmost importance for me to "RELEASE" and let go of any feelings of stuff. I allow myself to process the emotion and let it out, then I move to something else I picked up in recovery, I spend the next 30 days sending blessings and love to the object of my attention or resentment.
I don't know exactly when it happens but somewhere in the 30 days, magic happens. I shift to a new space. Today I know that when a "CHARGE" happens with someone I have some healing work to do within. Today I know that some part of this is a mirror that I can go deeper, and learn how to love myself more. When I stand in that space I recognize that we are all one and that it is impossible to vote anyone off or out, for we are all ONE.
There is only one life, and that life is a good life.
Blessing's and LOVE
Rev. Allen