I Am Worthy of my Good

Wow when your life work shows up, it really shows up.  Today I know that means I have called it in and I am ready to expand to a new consciousness.  This morning I realized that I am choosing not to ask for what I want in fear of rejection and being misunderstood (Greedy). As many of you know we have just opened a new Spiritual Center.  All of you have celebrated with us and some of you have been asking what we need.  Putting together the wish list was easy, the asking and sharing part I am choosing to make difficult.  

Part of it is that my Birthday is next week and there is a voice within saying " way to plan this out"  guilt folks into giving.  Along with that, now that I am learning to celebrate me, I want my Birthday to be all about ME!!!  The bottom line is "hidden beliefs that “I am not good enough”. As you read in the last blog I have been treating and praying for Divine help in allowing good into my life.  Allowing others to love me.  When we were children a great deal of the way my parents showed love was in giving gifts.  Gifts are one of my "Love Languages" yet not as high as quality time.  

What I recognized today is that my birthday is indeed coming and I really do get to receive a great deal of love from my "family" of choice.  Today I have two choices to get in the "Love Boat" and enjoy the flow, or I can paddle like heck back up stream fighting all the way.  I want to speak my truth; I am sore from paddling.  It is now time to release, let go of the paddles, and flow downstream to my GOOD.  

As I stand in the truth that I am Good, I am asking that all the desire of AMOR be met and that we LOVE, THRIVE, and BLESS the community and world around us by being who we came here to be.  Knowing that whatever I ask for and speak into existence must be made manifest.  Now I ride the Love Boat of life to my/our good.  I know that this "birth-month" is the best yet and that the LOVE that I so willingly give out is coming back to me NOW, Heaped up, pressed down, and running over, and that in doing this I set others free to see their worth and ask for what they want as well.

In the spirit of Asking 

AMOR Wish List:3Drapery Rods

3 book cases from IKEA 

Wheels for 2 of the Bookcase from IKEA

3 gallons of Behr Satin Paint

3 folding tables for classes and food events

3 New Cellular Shades for the windows

New Carpet 

Allen's Wish List 

I PAD

Time with Friends 

Cookies NO RASINS

Dinner with Friends

Party

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE

I love you 

Namaste 

Rev. Allen

Letting It .... In

This morning during my prayer time with my "prayer treatment" partner I realized something really amazing.  This last two weeks Spirit has requested my attention to allow the love around me in my conscious life.  I love being who I am today, and all the many ways Spirit speaks through me.  I love that when I am present with someone as they speak, Spirit is showing me a wonderful film of their life and showing me what to ask them when they have finished releasing.  I love how I get to be present with all my friends, family, and community and know that each and every one of us is on our Divine path.  Regardless of how it may appear at the moment.  I love when I do treatments with my community and the way LAW manifests in the lives of others knowing that my truth is their truth for there is only one truth and that is LOVE.

I love how it is so easy for me to see how "others" can have love all around them and yet "they" are so busy not letting it in.  As I mentioned Spirit requested my attention at the end of the week a couple weeks back.  Let me tell you the whole story.  AMOR Spiritual Center has been calling in a home and on the way to my eye appointment after a laser procedure Spirit asked me to take a new path as the illusion of traffic was heavy.  So rather than stay in the illusion, I took the other path and the moment I honored that knowingness within I knew exactly where I was going.  I was going to see AMOR's new home.  I drove to the street where a parking space was right in front of the building and called the number on the sign to check on the space.  The next day Spirit request that I look on Craigslist for chairs for the new space even thought the illusion was we had not even talked with the leasing agent about the space.  So, rather than stay in the illusion I looked on Craigslist to find 63 padded chairs for a dollar a piece. I spoke with the AMOR board and we made arrangements to pick them up. While there, the man selling the chairs asked why we needed the chairs and I told him about AMOR and our new home. (which at this point we had still not made contact with the leasing agent even thought I had made many attempts.)  He then states that they had sold many other items they were releasing yet no one had responded to this ad other than me, I said that is because they belonged to AMOR.  As he walked outside and loaded the last of the chairs he handed me some money back and said he wanted to help us with our new space.   We ended up getting the chairs for less than 38 cents a chair!   My wonderful friend on this adventure had just had a massage so when we got back to our house she needed to use the restroom and my instant thought was  "I have to unload these chairs before she gets back so she want lose the effect of the massage."   See a pattern yet?

Within the next two days I had a pain in my side that was GREAT, and I thought to myself “oh wow I have overdone it again”. On the way into the doctor we met with the leasing agent and secured the space for AMOR’s new home.  Later that day at the doctor I had a CT scan and was sent into surgery to remove my appendix.  As the folks from AMOR called, and my friends called, and my family called to ask could they be of help my honey told them that I was resting.  This last weekend all of our Community loved on me in such a deep way that it was over whelming to take in.  Yesterday AMOR moved into its new space and with me recovering from surgery unable to lift anything I got to sit and receive this wonderful community loving each other and me in this very DEEP and LOVING WAY.  Did I ever resist at times.  Yet last night I was so moved to tears the way Spirit works, I had to share.  This all took place and I didn't have to do it all in fact I didn't have to do anything.  We have this amazing space that the AMOR community created together - all of us.  Not Rev. Allen being super hero, doing it all, setting up a pattern as I have so many times before only to become bitter when I felt taking advantage of.  Spirit stepped in and asked me nicely to sit and enjoy the LOVE that surrounds me every day and know that the work is in knowing it is complete in the mind of the Divine and we get it watch it manifest.  And most of all we don't have to force anything into being.  

So here I am once again grateful for my appendix and the lessons I am learning along the way.  The best part is I am allowing the love of the community that I love so deeply each and every day to love me in return.  The Gift of Cause and Effect in ACTION.

I love you 

Rev. Allen