Day 53: Tornado, it is not my intention to lessen the impact of these natural disasters in our lives, but to gain a greater understanding of how they are created. In doing this, we can integrate this knowledge into our daily lives and recognize where we are placing our energy. Transformation is a powerful thing. It is so easy to create the highs and lows and the twists and turns that are needed to create a tornado simply by reliving the story over and over again. By transforming even one element of the equation we can bring about an entirely different set of experiences.
The passage about comes from 'Seasons of Change" and it reminds me of how often we are willing to look at who we believe is responsible. Yet, we are much less likely to look at our part in the dance. One of the things I talk to my coaching clients about is that it takes all parties involved to create a thriving relationship. It is my understanding and experience that the relationship that I have with myself has a dramatic influence on the relationship that I have with others. Just like with a tornado, I can create a life with self-doubt, self loathing, and self-hatred. Then when someone comes along and recognizes that within me and comments on it that I take offense to what they have said, not recognizing it was planted in my life by myself.
I love the understanding from today's reading that states that a tornado is created during a severe thunderstorm in which there is instability in the atmosphere combined with tumultuous air movement. How many times have I filled my life with self-hatred and self-criticism creating a severe thunderstorm and instability in my life and yet held the person who agrees with me responsible?
In changing our lives, it is important that we recognize our part in the dance of life. It is essential that we began to go through the closet and the cupboards and discover what we've stored there. Do we need it, or does it serve anymore? Far too long I allowed my hidden beliefs and what other people had said to me when I was a child to govern my life and how I was living it. It was through self-discovery, self realization, and self-loving that I began the transformation process to live the life that I am living today.
Does that mean that we won't be impacted by what other people say about us? Of course not. Yet, what I understand from my deepest core level today is what I do with that it's my responsibility. I have been deeply wounded by the termination of relationships, death, and grieving. Yet, at some point in that process I had to be willing to look at my responsibility in creating the life that I wanted to live. I can only speak from my understanding my experience when I say it was most often my internalizing all of the hurt, anguish, and grief deep within that created the manifestation in my physical world of cancer.
How do we begin the transformation process? By having the willingness to unpack.
When I am willing to unpack one bag, one box, one thought I am in that moment beginning the transformation process. To link it to our reading today, I am changing the environment of my life. So often I forget that I have power to transform any situation solely based on how I react to it. I can not control what anyone else says or does. I can however control how I react, and what I take to be my truth.
I Love you,
Rev Allen
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