One Foot in Yesterday and One Foot in Tomorrow

Day 59 Death:

How I do my work and live my life has a profound impact on everyone and everything around me. Just as in nature the ending or the closing of one life experience is the beginning of the jumping off place for a new way of life.

This morning I was thinking about the various times in our lives that we transition from one experience to the other. As young children we start out as infants, grow into toddlers, and then into preschool. That is where for many of us that life really begins to have a speedy transformation or transition in our lives. We go from kindergarten to elementary school, then middle school, and finally high school. For or a great many of us we then continue on to higher education in life. Each step along that journey can be monumental and frightening. Yet for most of us we just recognize it as growth. Many of us look on as an adventure, the anticipation or anxious awaiting to be a certain age. One of my greatest memories was being in middle school having this intense desire to be 16 years old so I could drive a car. Growing up in the role community as I did allow me the luxury of driving my dad's 65 Chevrolet around the farm to water the plants and do my chores. Yet, there was this excitement about being able to travel the roads of life without any supervision or restrictions.

Each step of our life is a jumping off place for the next. I recognize that going from elementary school to middle school and then to high school was for me a traumatic experience due to the life lessons that I had opted to learn. So much of life we spend trying to place the learning experience outside of ourselves when in fact we are the ones who are choosing the lessons that we wish to intergrade and learn in life. Each and every experience I've had along this journey of life have led me to this understanding of who I am today. Have there been spots along this journey when I question what was I thinking when I asked to learn this new aspect or new behavior? A great deal of my life I lived from the perspective that I had absolutely no control over how these life lessons would emerge are intergrate themselves into my life. Today, I understand at a deeper core level that I am constantly sending out signals to the world. Each one of those signals is like a golden invitation to a party. We do this at a subconscious level for as long as we need to, and then we'd transform that experience into the recognition that we are responsible for our movement into the world.

This movement or growth at the onset feels challenging and yet somewhere in the middle we begin to recognize and realize that we needed this experience or understanding to help propel us forward. Many times in life we sit in fear worriing about what's coming next missing the opportunity to live fully in this moment experiencing it just as it is. Far too often I think we spend time worrying about the future, or living in past experience and we miss the experience of now. When I think about it in another perspective, I think about the various modes of transportation we have in this great experience of life. We start out in carriages, move to tricycles, bicycles, school buses, our first car, our dream car, and finally a hearst. Some people may not experience all of those rides and yet each step of the way we all learn the lessons we are here to learn.

We can spend all of our time worrying and wondering about what's coming next. The gift that I'm learning most effectively through this work with "Seasons of Change" is that when I am fully present here and now I see the miraculous expression of life happening around me at every turn. I recognize through this work with nature the evolutionary process that each step is a building block for what's next. I can choose at any moment to spend my time building a proper foundation for what is coming next, or I can live in fear. When I spend all of my time living fully building an amazing foundation for my life each step then becomes a building block of what is next and that is sure to bring transformation and beauty. I can spend my time with one foot in the past and one foot in the future peeing all over today. Either way the choice is mine. 

I love you, 

Thank you, 

Rev Allen 

Am I Willing To Embrace The Life Lesson Today?

I am reminded that there are many times in our day to day life that it is easy to a erupt in anger or frustration. I find in those moments that it is necessary for me to understand how I work and transform these emotions into expressions of self-love and self appreciation. In learning to do this, I become aware that much like a volcano. My body gives off warning signals that I am about to erupt long before it actually happens. It is up to me at those moments to create an evacuation process for my own well-being which allows me to transform the situation into one that serves me better.

How do I deal with anger and frustration? Do I have an evacuation plan? When I find myself getting angry, I like to take selfies. Why? Because they make me laugh. It pulls me out of the eruption process and transforms the moment. What strategies can you think of to keep your emotions manageable?

Over the last few weeks, I have had multiple growth opportunities. This past week I found myself feeling sluggish, withdrawn, and not having my outgoing personality. In writing " Seasons of Change," I have been amazed at this journey that I've taken over the past year. As I'm getting closer to the end of that year cycle I am reminded of the tremendous growth. Along with that growth have come many opportunities to transform what has manifest in my life. One of the greatest self transformations that it Is occurring in my life is my ability to recognize the patterns that create the emotional makeup of my life. Once I'm aware of how I work and how I react to things it is in those moments that allow me to transform.

When I took on the responsibility of being a spiritual leader I knew that there were going to be numerous growth opportunities. Today I am most aware that loving others where they are is possibly one of the greatest gifts I've been given along this journey. The genuine growth lies in loving oneself fully. Will I always negotiate with ease and grace? No. Will I stop along the way and look at my past and what I'm doing to create the situation that is manifesting in my life? Yes. For a great deal of my life my mother would often refer to me as a bull in the china shop. She would say "you always get things done however sometimes you do not recognize what was happening around me." Today I am brilliantly happy with the fact that I recognized at a deep level what is happening around me. Through this work, I have become aware of how nature expresses itself. How it lovingly bow's and recognizes the Divine in all. Life is going to show up, and sometimes we may feel ill equipped to handle what is manifesting in our lives. It is extremely easy in those moments to have anger and frustration. The key at those moments is to create a plan that will help you navigate and negotiate these moments.

I am further reminded of one of my favorite quotes“Almost everything will work again if you unplug it for a few minutes, including you.” By Ann Lamott. Like our computers, cell phones, tablets, and gameboys, need to be rebooted from time to time so do we. This past week as I unplugged some really amazing things happened. The universe didn't stop. Life as I know it did not explode. The things that was to be handled are safe and in resolution in the perfect way. One of the numerous teachings that I live by is that I am of no value to anyone unless I am filled with self love and nurture myself. It can become so easy to forget the truth that we have held and learned and step into situations knowing full well that we are laying the groundwork for a violent irruption to happen.

I find that one of the easiest ways to transform those situations it is with laughter. I love watching comedy movies. I think this is one of the reasons I love taking selfies. I have a program on my computer that allows me to distort my face and make funny images and they always seem to be make me smile. Today I am aware that is one of the tools that I have in my toolbox of life or as I like to refer to it my love list. What are the things that you do to transform those situations in your life? Today I am more conscious than ever that this is a journey and that every day there is a beautiful life lesson to be learned. Am I willing to embrace that lesson today?

Thank you,

I love you,

Rev Allen

I Transform The Foundation Of My Life

They 57: Sinkhole As I mentioned in yesterday's reading it imperative that I know how to love and honor myself. For me, this begins with what I think of myself, how I feel about myself, and what I say to myself. I found through this life work that I am doing that I only allow in that which I believe about myself. If I believe that I'm worthless, and unworthy of love that belief will manifest that in the world around me and the people that I hangout with.

However, if I recognize the brilliance of who I am and what I bring to the world I will not only transform the foundation of my life, but I set the standards for anyone and everyone who enter my world. I am responsible for the foundation of my life. I am responsible for filling in those areas that I have allowed to be eroded by self-doubt, self-hatred, and fear.

As I stated yesterday over the last couple of weeks, I have had this in intense need to renew and refresh my life. It seems that once again I am in the perfect place within the "Seasons of Change" book for these life lessons, and growth opportunities to show up. It is so easy to look at a situation and want to become frustrated that we are not further along the path of life. When in fact, what the road is showing us is simply a manifestation of what we've been thinking about ourselves all along. It took me sometime to realize that the potholes in life were simply those areas of life where I had self-doubt, our self hatred. In learning to address those areas not with criticism but with compassion has been some of the most transforming places in my life.

When I stop, and take in the moment I truly begin to recognize how amazing this life is, and how much it is here to support me. It's so easy to look at potholes, and the sinkholes of life and began to question where are they all come from and will my life ever get better? When in fact, I can look at the solid areas of my life and celebrate those and recognize that in comparison this pot-hole is minor compared to all of the greatness that is happening around me. Far too often we spend too much time looking at the negative wanting it would go away when in fact our attention to it only amplify's it.

This morning I woke up with the understanding that I was laying next to someone that I love more deeply than I've ever loved anyone in my life. I felt safe. I felt loved. How many years of my life have I waited to have this experience? How long have I waited to feel this expression manifest in my life? Why then would I choose to focus my attention on the pot holes of life? The more I place my attention on what I want, and how much I love and appreciate myself the more those areas fill themselves in.

Thank you,

I love you,

Rev Allen