Vulnerable

Vulnerable - Capable of Being Physically or Emotionally Wounded.

This is the definition that I found in looking up the word vulnerable. Yet I have over the last few days felt the gentle nudge which I know to be the Divine wanting me to blog about it. 

I love the Five Love Languages by Chapman. I speak on them all the time. I ask all of my friends and community members to take the test and communicate the answer to me. Someone from the outside looking in might see that as being open to vulnerability. If I tell someone how I want to be loved that makes me open to being wounded emotionally. In words I use often “I can hear that.”

My personal love language is quality time, it doesn’t mean I want you to spend endless amounts of time with me, it means I want our time together to matter. I want you to be open, honest, sharing, and vulnerable. Not that I may use it against you at some future time; but, so that I might love you in a way that truly matters to you. 

Love is one of those places I find we are so guarded and closed off like we are ready for battle or in fear for our lives. It is no wonder we don’t feel loved and appreciated. I spend a great deal of my time looking for ways to be as open, and revealing as I can. I have had people say in the past you are too revealing and too vulnerable. Here are some other words I use a great deal “Not my truth.”

Most of my life I spent hiding. Who I was, what I liked, what I wanted, how I felt, letting you know what I thought about the matter, and most of all from loving myself. Today I wish to live my life open; transparent is a word I love to use. I look at it like this, when I have shared openly and honestly my secrets and thoughts, I don’t see that as being vulnerable I see it as freedom. I do not have to remember what I have told you, or fear what you may know. It frees me up to do the thing I do best in life. LOVE: 

I find in loving myself and others that the people who surround me really are there only to love me. After all that is the law of attraction at work. With that thought in mind what do you think we surround ourselves with when we are guarded, closed off and our defenses at maximum? 

Today, I may be opening myself to hurt, yet I know that in doing so I also open myself up to being loved. It’s worth the risk.

I love you 
Rev. Allen