Where shall we go today?

Day 89 Fireflies:

"You, like the firefly, are creating wonder everywhere you go. In your personal world, it may feel at times like your are standing still, when in fact you are flying around with great ease amazing all those around you".

The passage above is from today's reading in "Seasons of Change".  For most of my life, I have known that I am a nice person and that many people like to talk to me.  I get that I am a great life coach and that I can love people where they are.  I guess I just never really got that I was compassionate.

Compassionate (love) - Compassion is the response to the suffering of others that motivates a desire to help. Compassion motivates people to go out of their way to help physical, spiritual, or emotional hurts or pains of another.

On one of my many visits to see the doctor I had the opportunity to stand in the greatness of one of the check-in clerks, she was having an unusually hard day.   I noticed after that that she enjoyed checking me in when I made an office visit.  There was one occasion when I was severely sick she stated that she didn't like seeing me feel this way.  I thanked her and asked how she was doing?  She said that I was so kind I thanked her and told her to have a great day.  

I had the awakening after reading today's reading for the 4th time in a year that I AM a firefly.  I have spent my life flying around lighting up my life and the lives of those around me.  A former schoolmate highlighted this fact after finding me on social media stating that she remembered me as kind and friendly.  I remembered it to be a hellish experience.  Being constantly bullied for being different and yet somehow in the midst of that I found a way to make a difference in the lives of others.

On my last visit home to visit my parents I had the chance to see several people that I went to school with and was overwhelmed with the kindness and how each of them talked about how kind I was.   At the time, it felt like all I was doing was surviving.  I talk a great deal to my clients about allowing love, kindness and abundance into our lives.  My point of focus had been on getting through it and in the process had built a wall around myself to protect me.  One of the great life lessons is that in do so I do not allow things in or out.

Today I understand at a deeper level the light that I have within.  There are times when I feel that I am trapped in a mayonnaise jar, and I am not sure the person poked holes in the top for me to get air.  At that moment, the reality is that my ego has convinced me that there are limitations to what I can do and where I can go.  When in fact there is no jar, and I am free to roam the universe.  Where shall we go today?

Thank you,
I love you,
Rev Allen