The Journey Within

Day 80 Feathers:

It seems impossible that 90 days ago I was creating a headdress for myself out of crate paper and decorative items to celebrate the individuality of who I am. It seems almost unimaginable to believe what I have accomplished over the last years utilizing the tools within this book. It seems equally fitting to talk about that I understand and know that emotion, feelings, and how we see ourselves it is of the utmost importance. I find myself today in this deep place emotionally looking for an answer. I know the way to find the answer is by going to that sacred space within that is connected to the creative consciousness. . It is not found looking outside of myself. Yet I find myself time and again doing my best to find it there.

I think it perfectly fitting that the soul card that I chose today was a wellspring of love springing up from within. I have spoken many times within this book of the ravens that live near our home and often visit outside our window. It seemed only fitting that I would have someone to create for me a sacred feather for house blessings and cleansing rituals. I have found within the pages of this book this deep and abiding desire to understand and know how nature works at its deepest level. It is my desire to embody these qualities within. I recognize that today's reading coincides with the emerging of young birds of other species returning to the Great Northwest from their winter's journey to the south. How fitting it is it that I would be here in this book today looking at the divine qualities I hold within.

My beloved mentor reminds me that often times the way I write expresses how vulnerable I am to the world. That often I share deep and intimate things openly with this brilliant and beautiful heart of mine. And yet other times I am very quick, direct, and to, the point. I was reminded when I read today's reading of the final stages of writing this book. I had chosen the 90 expressions of nature that wanted to be expressed, and I had written about the qualities they hold within. It was my profound desire to have completion and publication that often pushed me to the finish line. One of the things I am most aware of today within nature is that for every action there is an equal or greater reaction. Therefore when I push, I need to understand that there is an equal force within nature pushing back. It is this force that keeps us standing firmly on the ground, instead of spending out somewhere into the great unknown. When I began to understand that as a fundamental truth in life I had a greater understanding and appreciation of the word surrender.

Over the last few days, I've spent time going within communicating with my soul. I've spent intimate time asking my greater consciousness what is next, what am I do, and left the question within this void knowing that the answer I needed was found within. Many times we think of where we want to go next and instantly start to plan and plot how to manifest that in our lives, rather than embodying and understanding of what it feels like to live from this new state of consciousness. One of the greatest gifts I have ascertained from this book is my willingness to go to the depths of my soul leave the question, wait for the answer, and allow the knowingness that is, to emerge and manifesting in my life.

It's like a miracle in the seed. We drop off countless seeds into this hallowed empty void commonly known as dirt. We consider that the magic is within the dirt when the truth is the miracle is within the seed. The darkness of the soil is really only holding the consciousness that the seed has within itself all along. That is why it is so important that I spend time in the depths of my soul planting and asking the truth about who I am. It is there that I find the answers that allows me to open from within, have the courage to reach for height that I've never reached before, and to manifest the fulfillment of what I've known to be my truth all along.

It seems impossible that a bird could fly when we look singularly at a feather, and yet we witnessed it everyday. And why is it that some birds with feathers can fly and others cannot. I know there are many scientific understandings about why this is possible. Yet, the greater question for me is how many times will I allow what other people think about me, and my abilities to stop me from taking flight?

I love you,

Thank you,

Rev Allen