The Light Within!

One of my favorite places to meditate is in our garage. I love it because it is dark and it allows all of my senses to rest and allows me to go within. I remember once while sitting in the darkness that I had this deep understanding that I am the light. I am never alone. I am the light that I am seeking. It was in that moment that I understood that had I called for help, had I turned on a light, had I looked outside of myself I would not have found the answer that I needed.  

Day 33: Moon, meditate in a dark room for 5 minutes. Light a candle and meditate for another 5 minutes. Share your experience.

I was once asked if a friend was in a dark cave would I go in after them? My answer was no. I would stand at the cave entrance and shine a light and call them to come out. Many times I have been questions about my cruelty and that I was abandoning my friend in time of need. I take that moment to remind each person they are welcome to see that any way they would like. I however see it as a loving response.

If I have a friend in a cave, it is because they chose to go into the cave knowing there was a chance of getting lost. How are two people being lost going to help the situation? When I stand in the doorway holding a light I am in fact inviting them into a world of freedom rather than joining them in a cave. I am responsible for my choices and choosing to go in the cave to save anyone limits them, and myself.

The moon reminds me everyday that people will say, do, and insinuate many things about me in my lifetime. They can only diminish me when I allow them to. The ego wants us to put the blame outside of ourselves when in fact the responsibility for diminishing comes from within. Yesterday I spoke about this at Amor Spiritual Center. Each day of my life it is my work to look within and look for the spaces where I am diminishing myself. When I choose to free those places up, I am illuminating myself from within.

We all journey inward and we all sometimes feel alone and isolated. Many times we call a friend for support, and sometimes we hold others responsible for where we are. Today I know that in order for me to find happiness, joy, and to thrive in life. I must do the work. One of my favorite buddhist saying is "once you reach enlightenment, you must still chop wood, and tote water."

Today I know that I am responsible for my illumination and that like the moon how others see me is really none of my business.

I love you,

Rev Allen