What Am I Holding Onto?

What Am I Holding Onto? Have you asked that question of yourself? Over my lifetime I have been looking at the things I am holding onto and how, it is weighing me down. My mother has advanced stages of Alzheimer. Here is this amazing woman who has been my number one fan my entire life, and today she doesn't know who I am. I have allowed this to create a need to hold onto things she as given me. I had this dish towel that had so many holes in it that it wouldn't even hold water and yet I still held onto it because my mother gave it to me. One day I sat down and looked at the dish towel and stated " You are not my mama!" I released the towel that day and moved on. I had an electric skillet that my mother had got me on one of the last visit she and my dad made to Calafornia. I have packed it and moved it to 3 or 4 places and to use it once. Last month I took it out of the pantry and looked at it and stated "You are not my mama!" I took it to the local value village and released it with the understanding that someone who really wants one would be thrilled to have it. Years ago, when I was with my first partner we didn't have a stove. All we had was an electric skillet and it was the best thing ever. It does my heart, and soul good to let go so that others can have a blessing. What will you release today?

Day 44: Fall is about letting go of old hurts, old wounds, and whatever has been holding you stuck in place. Close your eyes and ask your inner self what shall I release today?

How perfect is it that we are here for the second day of fall when reading this passage from Seasons of Change? I remember the day that I saw that beautiful tree and it glorious expression of life. How many times have I tried my best to hold onto the times in my life that I classified as good while at the same time doing my best to release the bad?

Fall is the perfect reminder that I can let go of everything and trust the process. I can trust the universe to show up and meet me where I am. I can allow this process to transform my life or I can resist and pick up all the leaves in my life and super glue them back on one leaf at a time. That point is really fruitless and might I say a total waste of time. Fall is going to happen whether I am resistant or not. It will continue to show up day after day until I have the willingness to let go of what I am holding on to. I have lived enough life to know this is true. Yet I continue to hold on like it is going to be different this time.

Just like the snapshot of the tree was a moment in the life of the tree. So much of what we hold onto is just a moment, a glimpse of the greater yet to be. When I choose to hold on to anything I am causing a backup in the flow of life. Hold on to enough things and I will find myself with a plumbing issue both internally and externally. Life is like a beautiful river flowing with ease and grace. Also bringing us what we need next. Take some time today and let go. Trust the process. You will feel lighter and more open to the blessing that is coming your way.

I love you,

Rev Allen