Starting Over

Good morning my faithful travelers,

Day 61: Coal

I want to express to you today about how the path of love goes both ways. It was my intention when I wrote "Seasons of Change" to create a safe space for others to transform their lives. What I am finding is that it has been, and is that for me. Over the last season, I stopped investing in myself and started allowing what ever (circumstances) to guide me on a daily basis. I am telling you this so that every one of you knows that I too have those moments. Just like waking up each day and reading from this book and writing was a path that I started to help myself and others which I found to be a joyous one. Yet, I allowed things in life to pull me off the path that was working better than anything else. I allow the demands of being a leader to tell me that others were more important than loving who I am. That too, is a path. While taking that path I got up each day and didn't read, I didn't blog, and I didn't eat the things I knew were the things my body needed. Why? Old habits have a way of reappearing until they are replaced with new ones.

I am working on my latest book about living through the seasons for a year. Well, I certainly found the needed resources for writing. Just as much, as taking a new path led me to weight loss, feeling better than I had in years. I can assure you that the old path has led me to 50 of the beloved pounds that I had released back onto my body. Am I am a failure because of that? No! The last two days I have picked myself up, dusted myself off, and started a new path again. Why? Because I am worth it. I matter.

I find that the ego wants us to remain small, isolated, and alone. It is time for me to Emotionally Grow Out of that consciousness. How do I do that? One step at a time! Each day we are given a choice, follow the old road or build a new one. This week the underlining message has been starting over. How many times must I start over? The real answer lies within the statement itself. If now is all we have, and now, oh and now. We spend our entire life starting over. Each moment of our lives is new and we have to begin again. Why then do we find that it is so hard to share with others we are starting over. I didn't fall off the path that was working. I instead started a new path to an old place. Funny how things look so much better from a distance, and then we arrive, we find that it is not how we remembered it.

As we evolve, mature, and grow this amazing thing happens. With the deepening of our roots, we gain experience. Oh we can go back to where we were, however we cannot go back to the old consciousness. Why, because we are no longer that person, it is like forcing a square peg into a round hole. It doesn't work.

Life just like nature evolves and we do as well. Whether we want to or not. We lose branches, limbs, and sometimes our very essence. What we do not lose is our soul the knowingness that we are here to make a difference and that we will continue on this path as long as needed until we remember that who we are matters in the world. Coal is the perfect example. Coal was once vegetation. It stopped growing, transformed into the earth and then was once again transformed by nature into something that we used as fuel to heat our homes for many years. How many people today feel their homes with coal? Very few as we have evolved. Just like nature, we have found a new way to live.

While on the road of life it is important to remember that you are the means by which you travel. If you find your self somewhere you don't want to be, surrounded by folks who don't love and appreciate you. Pick up and move on. Set your destination for a new space, and take the time to love yourself along the way. This work though simple is not an overnight success. It is the process of evolving at your own speed. Just like with nature there are some trees that grow really fast, and others take a great deal of time. Our environment often tells us that the one who grows the fastest wins. When in fact they both do. They are learning different lessons. Grow at your own speed and know that you are perfect just as you are.

I love you,

Thank you,

Rev Allen