What makes you tick? What adds heat to your life? How do you manage the pressure of life?

How easy is it to over indulge? This last weekend was filled with some life long dreams coming true. Marriage Equality for all! Greater community at its best. Love "being" expressed at a deep level for everyone. It is easy in times of great joy to become over stimulated with joy. In those moments we can remember the importance of breathing, stopping for a moment to center ourselves, and being fully present in the moment. This works when we find ourselves over stimulated with the things that we classify as the opposite of joy as well. Taking the time to process, replenish, and self care is one of the greatest life lessons we can embody. When we do this, we allow others in our life to see
the importance of self love. What an amazing lesson to receive, and to express.

Day 71: Geysers, get to know yourself from the inside out. What makes you tick? What adds heat to your life? How do you manage the pressure of life?

The more we know the answers to these questions the more we will be able to flow from season to season with greater ease.

What an amazing weekend! Celebrating the Interfaith Service with some of the most amazing beings of love, the Supreme Court decision, walking in the Seattle Pride Parade with the greater community of 8 of the most amazing communities as we express love for all. It was amazing and I was honored to serve and be apart of the teams that created the greater vision for expressing love to the fullest.

One of the greatest life lessons that I have learned while doing this work with "Seasons of Change" is living that which I teach. It is so easy as a Spiritual Leader to tell others what to do, I find that true leadership means showing others and allowing them the safe space to do the same. I knew that I needed Monday to replenish my tanks and refuel with self care, self love, and down time. I know that keeping as cool as possible is very important to me, my attitude, and my social skills. I know that taking naps, and allowing my internal knowingness to show me the way is the greatest way I can love myself from the inside out. Over the years, I have pushed through what I know to be my limits more times that I care to imagine. Only to find myself depleted, exhausted, and out of integrity with myself.

Finding balance is one of the greatest tools that I have in my self love tank. I know that after a large event filled weekend it is of the utmost importance that I have down time. Time to replenish and renew my senses, so that I can be the expression of love that I come here to be. I know that having cooling fans to cool me down on the very warm days, and drinking a massive amount of water is for me essential to my well being.

There was so much excitement and joy over the weekend and everyone really wanted to share their thanks, and love with me yesterday. I knew that to fully receive all of that. I had to self care first. Taking time to allow my emotions to balance out after being stimulated to the fullest. I filled my day with several naps, cool food, and a cool fan to eliminate the chances of over heating. Another great life lesson I have learned in this process is how easy it is to get over stimulated. When we are depleted it is very easy to allow outside stimulus to activate the pressure cooker of life just like the geyser. When the pressure built's up, it has to be released. When I self care, and self love I have learned that what I am really doing is managing the temperature with which I am cooking.

Take time to love yourself from the inside out! Your mind, body, and soul with be filled with gratitude and you will show up in life as the expression of love that you are!

I love you!

Rev Allen 

Has a difference of opinion shifted how you see life?

So many times in life my ego is so focused on being right! I will say once again that fear has us playing small when we have come here to be magnificent. Limited anything, most importantly ourselves are one of the greatest tragedies in the creative process. What we believed to be the limits of yesterday are being opened to new greater heights that ever before. Look at the history of electricity, phones, and the fact that I am writing this blog from my apple computer allows me to understand that my opinions of yesterday had to shift in order for that to happen. Why then, am I so afraid to look at my Spiritual beliefs in the same way?  

Day 70: Eclipse, has a difference of opinion shifted how you see life?

Growing up in South Georgia was one of the greatest lessons in love, how nature works and knowing that what I plant must be made manifest. I leaned the principles of the law of nature what you put into the earth manifest as that. A grain of corn yields corn. I also learned a great many things about Christianity, faith, and love. For years in my life, I was so dedicated to the belief that there was only one path up the mountain and that anyone that was not on my path was indeed headed to eternal damnation.

When I was a young teenager I discovered that truth included me from my family's perspective. Which was the beginning of self discovery, self love, and my personal experience with this creative intelligence that I call the Divine. I realized at that moment that I had to find the truth for myself and I begin what I now know to be a life long journey into spirituality. I will state for the record that this is my experience and as I say within Seasons of Change, and the Amor Spiritual Center, you are responsible for your own journey into Spirituality and everyones is going to be different.

Over the years, my views, my desire, my thoughts, my beliefs have transformed the more I open to others and their insights. I hear today with an open heart and then I go within to find the answer for myself. Today my journey is more joyous, loving, exclusive, and open than ever before. It required a great deal of self work, self evaluation, and the letting go of old beliefs that no longer served me. There are a great many who would say I have strayed from the truth. Others would say that I have become more open. My internal knowingness let's me know that I am on the path laid out for me.

Yesterday I had the honor of being part of the most amazing Interfaith service. Oh I have been part of many over the years in ministry. Let just say that the Divine me showed up yesterday. It was a dream come true. I heard unity, love, kindness, openness, and oneness from each person. It wasn't about being right/wrong good/bad it was about BEING love. I realized in that moment that I needed each experience of my life to be fully present to the Divine in ALL yesterday. Now that is a Namaste` experience. Find your path in life, don't take someones else's out of fear. Find the path that is right for you and follow it with all of you! Be the light of love that you are.

I love you

Rev Allen 

What is it that you pay attention to in life?

Stop what you are doing right now and ask yourself, where is my focus?  Is my focus on something I want more of?  Am I focused on something that happened yesterday?  Am I anger, hurt, or sad?  A great deal of the time we allow our ego mind to replay the events that bring us discomfort and anxiety.  When we engage our conscious mind we can begin to release those events and fill our subconscious with wonderful new events that serve us at a deeper level.  We have become so task driven that we focus all of our energy on our to-do list, our agendas, and our career goals.  It is important to remember that balance between rest, and play, being and doing, and being tasked and releasing and letting go.   Take some time today and sit in nature and try this exercise out.  You will find how amazing your life really is.  

Day 69: Frogs, sit in nature take in the all of the beauty that you can. Close your eyes and see how much you remember.

This exercise is amazing. My beloved and I live surrounded by nature and taking it in is easy as we just have to look outside. This morning, as I sat doing this exercise I was amazed at all the wonderful things I was remembering. The most amazing of it all was the smile on my face as I was thinking of all the wonderful trees, and how they fill in and make this wonderful lush landscape of life. I was surprised that one of the first things that I remembered was this tree that had fallen half way down and was still growing that way. I remember it because it was unique.

Another thing I remembered right away was the large evergreens that are taller than the rest of the trees, and lush, full, and such a deep shade of green. I love that this view that I admire is ever changing, and that if I did this exercise everyday that I would notice the subtle way that nature transoms itself. I love that this lush green space is a safe space for the crows, and other birds that nest there. I love the little bunny rabbits that hop out with the greatest of speed.

What is it that you pay attention to in life? What grabs your focus? There were years in my life that drama, pain, bitterness, and anger held my focus so tightly that it was impossible for anything unlike that to make its way in. This exercise allows us to soften our focus in life and notice the little things that add up to such a wonderful and amazing life. When we think about it, it is the moments we look at nature that we really remember. The sunset on the beach, the mountain top views, the grand canon, and a walk in nature. It is those places that remind us to slow down. Take in all of life, and savor the moment. It really is all we have.

This exercise is based on the gratitude principle. When we close our eyes everything that we remember is really our gratitude list to the universe. Enjoy your day, and the moment. I love you! 
Rev Allen 

I would never do that?

Today in the Seasons of Change book we are asked to look at the areas in our lives where we find judgement. Before you run away, take a deep breath and go within for a moment. We all have judgement. The key is what we do with it once we find it. Our work here on this physical plane is to remove the area in our lives where we hold hate, anger, judgement, and fear. Our work is to open those places up, release the old, and step more deeply into love. Not always the easiest of tasks yet, when taken moment by moment they become much easier to swallow.  

Day 68: Hummingbirds, take a moment and notice how your friends process and do things differently that you might? If you appreciate the way your friend does something, excellent. If not, take a moment to look at where you might be living in fear, or judgment.

How easy is it to look at how someone else is doing something and say I would never do that? I would never say that! What were they thinking?

As I journey this amazing path of self discovery and deep transformation I am amazed at the number of opportunities that I can stop, observe, and listen to my inner knowing which allows me to transform my life. I realize today that everyone is learning in a style that suits them best. Today I have a greater understanding of what that looks like in real time. As a life coach, mentor, and someone who is called upon to stand in others greatness. I get the amazing opportunity to hear others process. Over the years of doing this work, I have softened my technique in a great many ways.

Today when someone comes to me for support I have this understanding. Through my work with Hooponopono (Hawaiian teaching), I know that each person I meet is a gift. What the person is bringing me is my work. I get to heal this experience within myself. Once I do that, I heal it within the whole of humanity. It is a very simple process which is much like the teaching in the Seasons of Change book yet can be a challenge for us to commit to.

When I find myself with a judgement challenge, which reveals my work. I have this conversation with the greater universe. I repeat over and over to myself these four phrases. It is the intent that we are healing these conditions within the whole of the universal existence.

I'm sorry,

I love you,

Please forgive me,

Thank you.

What an amazing healing transformation takes place within myself the moment I understand and know that I am being giving the opportunity to heal something with my own consciousness rather than stand in judgement of others. When I live this work and I look at nature and how it lives I know that judgement is really fear in yet another disguise. Often it is my own ego that needs to be right that makes the call that says this is wrong, bad, or say what were they thinking?

Looking at life from this perspective has freed my soul up to love at a much deeper capacity. That is after all what I am here to do. Find the places in me where I can release fear and step into love more deeply than ever before. Oh, I sometimes get lost in the day to day labels of life, but my true work is to be loving in all that I do.

I find this exercise from Seasons of Change most helpful as a guide to where to focus my work next. If I look around and find that I am joyous and understand that everyone is learning in a manner that serves them best. Excellent! If I find an area that I am feeling some judgement, excellent! I now know where to focus my attention. I know through this day to day work I can transform my life just like nature does. One moment at a time!

I love you!

Rev Allen 

What to do when I am afraid?

We enjoy the emotions of joy, happiness, and love yet, it is so easy to really dislike the emotions on the other end of the emotion scale. In writing this Seasons of Change, it was my desire that we learn at some deep level that we are all interconnected and part of a thriving and flowing whole. In reading "Leap of Faith" by Pema Chodron I was remined that each emotion only last about a minute to a minute and a half. It is our reactivating the emotion that keeps it happening again and again. I remind myself and others all the time that each time we tell the story about something we feel negative energy around in essence we are inviting more of the same. Regardless of who started it, we are the ones who must keep it active for it to affect us.  

Day 67: today look at something that you currently are afraid of. What would happen in your life if you were to substitute that fear for love?

Over the last ten years of my life, I have had a day by day journey with my fears and turning them over to love. Being someone who had the dance with cancer I get to have several ct scans a year. I remember when this first started I was so afraid. I put so much energy into having a joyous journey with cancer yet, I knew I did not want to take that journey again. Rather than try to resist it I would lean into it. What do I mean? 

I would ask myself questions, what does my internal knowingness feel about this? What are the cells in my body telling me? What kind of game can I make out of this? Once I started asking questions I involved my whole being rather than just the ego when is based in fear. I began to make the event a photo shoot for my internal organs. I would say to the technician make sure you get some good pictures I may want some 8 x 10's of the really good ones. Laugher is one of the great healers we often over look. When we are living in fear it is hard if not impossible to laugh. One of my great tools on my happy list is watching a comedy. Laughter is a great way to transform an emotion to a higher vibration. 

Another fear I had was the fear of not having health insurance. I know that so many of us in the U.S. do not have health coverage. This was something that I once again had to ask my higher self for help with. I had to put my trust in the universe to provide for all my needs, and wants. I once again begin to ask myself questions. Did the universe provide thought out all of my medical procedures? Do I see any reason why it would stop supporting me now? Am I willing to put my trust in something that has proven itself over and over again? 

One of the great take a way's from doing this work on a daily basis has been this divine knowingness that I am cared for by this amazing creative consciousness. It is always working to insure that I have not only what I need but, what I want as well. My responsibility is to know this is true, and live from a place of love verses one of fear. 

By leaning into the emotion and asking them questions I find that any fear I have releases the hold it has to love. Now that is a joyous thing. 

I love you!

Rev Allen

Where do you feel "stuck?"

It can be really easy with all the things that are happening in the world today to get lost in fear. To believe, or buy into the beliefs of others. One of the best life coaching skills that I pass forward to all of my clients is to create a list of people who stand in your greatness versus those who wish to hold you where you are. Why is this valuable information? Often times out of habit when something we perceived to be unpleasant happens, we choose to share that information with as many people as possible. Once a pity party has begun it is extremely easy to find others who want to bring countless unwanted guest to the party. What I suggest to my clients, and is my own practice is to call a friend who will help me transform the situation rather than adding additional anger, grief, and anxiety to what is already a stressful situation. When I dial a friend who will stand in my greatness I am breaking one of the greatest habits in the world. The need for pity, or the need to be a victim. The unconditional love of a friend who is unattached to the outcome allows me the freedom to move forward in the direction of my heart rather than in reverse which is always the direction of fear.

Day 66: Water Falls, Where do you feel "stuck?"

There are those times in life when I feel that I need to make something happen. I feel it is my responsibility to make what I want manifest in my life a reality. I have transformed that understanding through my work with the abundance book by John Price that reminds me that. That is not my truth!

"In one of the readings it states that "the divine consciousness that I am is forever expressing its true nature of abundance. That is its responsibility not mine. My only responsibility is to be aware of this truth. Therefore, I am totally confident in letting go and letting the creative process appear as the abundant all sufficiency in my life."

I often say at Amor Spiritual Center that the universe is working to support my dreams. Put another way there's a creative intelligence that is working on my behalf to ensure that I have everything needed to accomplish with excellence everything that I do. Why then what I ever question taking the first step?

Last week at the community talk I shared with the community that fear often keeps us frozen in place. Fear is an ego based belief that we are going to be hurt, or we're about fail. It is my belief that once we become aware of how the ego works we can work with it rather than against it. For instance, the ego is really our internal guidance system to protect us. The perceived hurt is based on past experience, and past expectations.

I shared a post on Facebook that states when driving downt the road of life we want to keep our view in rear view mirror in perspective. That looking at the past is ok from time to time to measure where we've come from. Yet we are no longer heading in that direction. Keeping our eyes focused on the goal, the dream, the desire enables us to focus our energy in the direction of our heart. Fear has us closing our heart telling us that following our heart is irrational. We have listened to this message for so long we believe that is it normal. When in fact when listening to our heart we allow the still quiet knowingness to always leads us home.

I love you,

Rev Allen

I love to celebrate!

In creating "Seasons of Change" I talk about the creative process and how it compounds over time to create what we know as the change of seasons. By tapping into that energy, I have been able to transform my life in a very short time. There is much wisdom to be found in nature and that wisdom is within each of us as well. As we spend time each day doing this work, we remember more of who we are versus who we have been conditioned to believe we are.  

Day 65: Salt, journal about the movement that you have seen in your life so far. Celebrate the cycle that you have chosen to ignite and the changes it has brought.

I love to celebrate!

I am so grateful today that Spirit allows this book to come through me. That the creative power in the universe is expressing itself most brilliantly within me. Each day when I read and do this work I am so very touched with the impact it is having on my mind, body, and soul.

Over the last two seasons I have read something motivational everyday. I have spent 80 of those days doing abundance work which is showing up in our lives amazingly. I know that this work is allowing me to transform my thinking and release anything that is unlike abundance, affluence in my, our lives.

I continue to do my daily work with my body. I am trilled that I have released over 70 pounds, and that my body is restoring itself to balance. My blood pressure is lower than ever and my medication has been reduced by half. My blood sugar levels are within or below the normal range and my medication as was reduced by 50%. I am doing yoga on a weekly basis and my body is more flexible than ever.

My soul connection is deeper than ever. Thought meditation and contemplation I am at peace. I find myself loving more deeply not only myself but others. I am going within for the answers. I am following the lead of my internal knowingness. I set intentions and watch them materialize.

All of this as a result of doing this work daily compounded over time. Nature never rushes yet gets everything accomplished.

I love you

Rev Allen 

Today think about a circumstance or an opportunity you wish to transform.

It was my desire when writing "Seasons of Change" that it would make a difference in the lives of others. The greatest impact has been in doing the work everyday. As a life coach and mentor I find that telling others how to live is "an answer." Showing others how to transform their lives has a greater rate of understanding. It was my willingness to look at my relationship with food, and how I had been hiding out in it that has allowed me to make a transfromation with my weight. It was my willingness to love all of myself that allowed me to find love within. It has been my daily walk with my Greater Self that has allowed me to return to love and find that making sense of things is not what transforms me. It is what I do with what happens that transforms me. This exercise was just what I needed today to return to who I am. I AM LOVE! 

Day 64: Hail, Today think about a circumstance or an opportunity you wish to transform. Take a moment and journal about the experience and how you feel at this moment. When you are finished, take your journal and go and sit in a different space and write the story again. When complete, go to a new space and write the story again. Repeat this until you feel your perspective begin to shift.

(Journal entry 1)

My heart has been heavy over the last few days and I empath the great sorrow for human behavior. Where in the midst of this do I find a new perspective, and how do I return to love?

(Journal entry 2)

I know that life is expressing itself everyday. I know that violence is the only answer that some feel they have. How can who I am make a difference in that behavior? How can I find a way in the face of fear to open my heart and become more loving? How can I create a new beginning? How do I keep loving?

(Journal entry 3)

Living as an open homosexual through out my life as cause a great deal of grief and suffering. The loss of my family, my home, and my faith. I did not understand at that moment the courage I held within my soul. I choose at that moment to be myself rather than who others wanted me to be. I didn't need them to change. I only wanted to be the best version of who I could be. Through the gift of my friend Donald Gene, I found a new God of my understanding that loved me as I am.

I created a new family with others who could love me as I am. I found that home is a space where you feel loved, honored, and respected. I found that I had enormous courage to stand as who I am, and know that I had a purpose. I witness countless members of my family become sick and die from a senseless disease called AIDS. I begin to understand that love was the only answer that would transform any of this. I begin to see a new future, and a new life.

(Journal entry 4)

I have learned through experience that love changes who we are. It was love that transform my body and the cancerous cells back to perfect health. It was love that transform the AIDS diagnosis into undetectable. It is love that has allowed me to find love for myself. It is love that allowed me to shift the perspective of my life from grief to joy. It was love that allowed me to find the soft spot within myself to allow others to find their own way. It was love that allowed me to forgive myself and others. It was love that allowed to me to get up this morning and do this work. It is love that allows me to open my arms and expose my heart once again. It is love that transformed my life. I am now willing to return to love.

I love you!

Rev Allen 

What am I holding on to?

What am I holding on to?

I speak a great deal about hidden beliefs and the power they hold within them. Remember your favorite song when you were younger and you would play it over and over again. You knew every word, phrase, and could sing it just like the artist did. That is exactly how hidden beliefs work. They are something that we believed most often when we were younger that continues to play on repeat throughout our lives. When we learn to release the beliefs that no longer serve us it frees us to replace those old messages with new ones. I find it very important in working with hidden beliefs that I create a new belief to fill the space previously held by the old belief. Once we uncover the belief and release it we create a vacuum effect which coupled with a new thriving belief supports the transformation of our lives. 

Day 63: Ice, releasing what is unlike who I am. 

When I was doing research for "Seasons of Change", I found the information about Ice formulation stimulating. In order for ice to formulate in salt water, it must first eliminate all the salt so that it can formulate into a block of ice. I speak often about the law of attraction and how like-minded things come together. 

Once again it is vital that I recognize and become aware of who I surround myself with and what are my beliefs. As I release, old hidden beliefs, it allows me to let go of anything I've held true about myself in the past. The interesting thing is once I do this work my circle of influence will change as well. I remembered when I was in early recovery for drug and alcohol addiction we were informed we had to change our playgrounds and are playmates if we wanted to stay sober and clean.

In the workshop "Seasons of Change" which is an introduction to living a new life accompanied by the "Seasons of Change 90 day transformational guide which sets you up to live the life you desire to live. In this workshop, we play the game from today's journal entry in which we write down the first thing which comes to mind when we hear a list of words. I remember the day I had my first experience playing this game. I learned a lot of valuable information contained in my entries. My greatest all Ah Ha moment was around money, sex, and the word dumb.
A great deal of my life I held a hidden belief that I was stupid or inadequate. Having dyslexia as a child in the south I heard a great deal that I was a slow learner, or that I was an underachiever. This impacted by life and continued to until I unpack the hidden belief around it and transformed my life. I had a tremendous fear of reading in public and the thought of writing a book was something I never fathomed would come through me yet alone become published works.

Letting go of our hidden beliefs frees us to become the individuals, the expression of life that we come here to be. Understand that once you know the hidden belief it does not by any means go away, it simply means that you are now aware of it and you can work with it in a conscious way rather than allowing it to govern your life from an unconscious state of mind.

What are you prepared to release today so that you can be the greatest expression of yourself?

I love you

Rev Allen

Does any of this make a difference? What is the use?

Why do I post gratitude each day? Does any of this make a difference? What is the use?

Over the last few days, I have been listening with my heart to all the grief, pain, angry, fear, judgement, blame, shame, and hatred. It is really easy to look at what is going on in the world today and ask the question why? How does gratitude make a difference? Does who I am really make a difference? What is the use of it all?

So many times, when life is filled with chaos I choose to get lost in it all. I can jump into fear and hide out. I did that most of my life. I used all the all blame games I could to make something and someone else responsible for all of my problems, and the issues in the world. One day I read a passage in a book that changes my life. "So you eliminate everything in your life that you don't like then what?"

I had to stop for a moment and think about it? What would I do if I eliminated everything I didn't like in the world? What would be left? I would be here all alone and happy, right? NOT! It is not the outside things that cause me pain. It is my inability to look at what it brings up for me that I don't want to deal with. So instead I make it "your" fault.

For me, the shift really happened when I heard the word "cancer" used in a sentence that was attached to me. All of my life I blamed everyone, and everything and there was so much self hatred within myself that I manifested cancer to eat it all away from the inside out. I realized at that moment that I was doing my best to eliminate everything I didn't like in my life. ME!

That moment in time allowed me to see the insanity in that kind of thinking. It allowed me to remember that fear, hatred, anger, bitterness, grief, sadness, pain, loneliness, isolations, had caused me to eliminate the love that was within to such a point that I was almost at the point of extension. How was that helping?

It was that moment in time that I vowed to live my life with my heart open! Regardless of what happened. It was worth the risk. I started taking responsibility for me, my life, my thoughts, my feelings, and my actions. I stopped listening to the news, fear based thinking, and gossip. I started reading books, listening to music that inspired me, and looking inside myself for all the places I had hidden in fear, pain, and shame. One by one I would take the self hatred out of the hiding place and embrace it, thank it, and release it from my life.

I couldn't fix the past because it wasn't broken. All I could do was to release anything within myself that wasn't aligned with love, joy, and peace. That was and is my life work. It was no longer about elimination, it was about embrace, give thanks, and release anything that no longer served me. At times it has been trying yet, I stayed the course. That is why I get up each day and write gratitude, and why I find something in my life to be grateful for.

My life, my love, my light is not in vain. It does make a difference! That difference is within my soul. It is who I am. Am I challenged at times. Yes! Yet each day I choose to get up, chop the wood of gratitude, and tote the water of love knowing that who I am does indeed make a difference.

Thank you for allowing me to share with you today.

I love you

Rev Allen 

Who can I be today that my future self will be grateful for?

Having someone else believe in you is amazing. Having faith and believing in yourself is priceless. I am so grateful today for the last 3 seasons of my life, and the journey that I have taken on over the last 10 years. I love myself more deeply than ever, I know and am aware of my strengths, my faith, and my ability to work with the creative power of the universe rather than against it. I have transformed my body from cancer, blood sugar, high pretension, and excess body weight. I have transformed my mind in the way I think about myself, and what I tell myself. I have transformed my soul with a deep and abiding inner relationship through mediation, yoga, and self reflection. Today I am very grateful to who I am.  

Day 61: Coal, who can I be today that my future self will be grateful for? List 4 things I am grateful for about myself.

As we move into the last 30 days of this season in the Seasons of Change book, I am reminded that this daily work continues to transform my life. Yesterday my beloved and I moved 350 concrete pavers from our driveway up the hill to our new patio area. I am very grateful that the job is complete. Here is the real gratitude. Over the last 2 plus seasons of doing this work on a daily basis, and the contract I made with myself I have reduced my body weight by 70 pounds. I continue to maintain that through my renewed commitment to myself and this work. I realized as I walked up the hill with this extra weight that a year ago I was taking that and more on my body.

As I have stated many times most of my life my A type personality has served me in many ways, and yet in others it led to a great deal of frustration, anger, and bitterness. The need and desire to control everything for me was based on the fact I had no control over myself. Through this work, meditation, reading, and going within I find that I am more in love with myself than ever before. Over the last few days, the plan that had been laid out was not the plan that actually happened. In the midst of it all, I found a deep and abiding calm. I realized that noting that was happening to the plan was life treating and as a matter of fact it gave me more one on one time with my beloved.

Today I get up each day, I give thanks to everything in life, and I do this work. I know that my today self thanks my older self for choosing to do this work 3 seasons ago. The transformation in my life is beyond anything I could have dreamed of at that moment. Thought doing this work on a daily basis the accumulative effect has added up to the most joyous life I could hope to have.

4 things I am grateful for about myself.

My ability to see the good in all things.

My ability to do the same thing over and over until it transfrom my life.

My ability to love others where they are.

My ability to forgive myself and love myself more deeply each day.

I love you

Rev Allen 

Fossils, what do I want to be remembered for?

I live my life in a state of love most of the time. Yes, I too have my moments when I forget who I am and why I came here. I am very happy to say that those moments are fewer and fewer as I journey down the river of life. I was reminded yesterday that unlike the events in life that we give all of our power to. At the end of the day, they are not life altering, or for that matter memorable in 3 weeks. What are the moments that take your breath away? Who, when you are in their presence does to you feel most alive? Spend more time doing those things, and living your passion to it fullest. The other stuff is just there to teach us where we are on the journey.  

Day 60: Fossils, what do I want to be remembered for? If someone could hold an article of clothing that I had worn, or my favorite piece of jewelry what emotion would they feel?

As I shared today, my legacy is Love, and being a safe space for others. I recently finished reading another powerful book, and one of the things it addresses is knowing your passion. Knowing it so well that you can state it with ease and grace and that others can as well.

My passions are To Be Love, to myself, others, and being a safe space for all.

It is the work that I am doing now in my life. One of the key things I have learned on this journey is that I can only be responsible for my intention, not how anyone receives it. Since I teach Love 101 classes and I emphases the importance of knowing how you best give and receive love. I have several friends who really dislike physical touch. One of the many ways that I am a safe space is when I see them I open my arm to expose my heart and ask them this question. Shall we embrace? The decision is theirs, I have set my intention, and I am open to giving and receiving at that moment. Here is the key, I am honoring myself and most of all I honor them. Many times they say no, and they thank me for loving them in a way that matters to them.

I have other friends who for them I trigger race, sexual things due to my skin tone, my beard, and my physical size. I may appear in size as a big bull, when in fact I am a soft cuddly bear. Leaning to love myself was the key is all of this. So many times I don't honor myself and therefor have little, if any chance of honoring you. When I know my boundaries and honor them I am really setting the standard for what I will accept from others.

If someone were to hold my wedding ring what would they feel? Joining with my beloved 6 years ago was one of the greatest days of my life. It really does keep getting better everyday. I know that whoever touched it would feel deep, and abiding love. The kind of love that holds your hand all night long in the hospital with your appendix ruptures. Love that holds your hand in the car, and always makes sure you are safe, or makes sure you get in the car first.

My legacy is Love! I know that is why I came here and I know that is who I am.

I love you

Rev Allen 

Death, what are my feelings about it?

Today as a "Life Coach" I am often asked the question what happens when we die? How can I become less afraid of dying? How do I deal with the death of someone I love? There really is no one answer to any of these questions. Grief is something that we have to journey through one step at a time. For some it requires quiet time, for others very loud music and dancing. When my mother's father passed away, I felt the need to rototill the yard and create a new and beautiful garden. He was a farmer and it was what felt right to me. The key is to honor the self. Take the time you need. It is a process. Only you know when you are complete. Remember that you are supported by the universe in your journey.  

Day 59: Death, What is my emotions around the ending of a tree's life, and the transformation process that happens naturally when it falls in the woods?

On one of our many nature walks my beloved planed and excursion that impacted me most profoundly. I was in the mist of writing "Season of Change" and here I was surrounded by nature in all of it glory. The thing that impacted my life the most that day was seeing how the fallen trees were the begging of new life. That as the tree started it natural break down, and return to the earth a miracle was happening in this transformative process. New life was beginning. 

This reminded me of a quote I had heard many times before. "When things appear that they are falling apart they are actually falling into place." Here before my eyes was the completion of one form of life and the beginning of another. How awesome was that? I love how nature in all of it wisdom looks at death, transition, or transformation. Take the life of an amazing tree, who lives a wonderfully long and full life. When that part of its journey is complete it releases it roots, or hold in the earth, and falls to the ground. At that moment, the miracle of transformation is already in process. As it begins to break down, or as I like to look at it transform into its next adventure. When we look at it from a human, or emotional standpoint we see the ending of an amazing life. Yet from the perspective of the tree, it is not an end yet, a rebirth or new beginning. 

Today I know that is the same is true for you and I. As I shared in today's reading as a youth I worked in the funeral industry. During that period of my life my best friend, my Pa-Pa transitioned. He was, and is my hero. He had such compassion, love, and would sit and talk with anyone and they would leave feeling transformed. It was his mission in life to leave things better than he found them. He always made time for others and he listened with his heart, and only responded when he felt that what he had to say was appropriate. It was deeply profound to have this man in my life. I remember standing next to him lying in the casket. I knew the man that I loved was no longer there. He was now living within my heart, life, and would forever be a part of me. I had no reason to cry. I knew in my soul that this was not goodbye. It was in fact hello on another level. 

Today some 36 years later I feel him in my life at a deeply level than ever before. Today I know that I am the miracle of life that began with his life. That makes me feel so very happy, and blessed. I love you! Rev Allen

Do I have an evacuation plan for when I feel anger?

Do I have an evacuation plan for when I feel anger? Wow, when I think about it on that level I begin to realize that learning to navigate life and the multitude of emotions having an evacuation plan is in place is a really great idea. Do you remember when you are in elementary school and you had the safety drills? I thought at the time how exciting is this, I get to go outside and it isn't even recess yet! As an adult I can say I didn't have the same experience. I love how when we are children everything is an adventure. As we experience a new emotion, it is just an adventure. We learn to have hidden beliefs around them based on the experience of those around us. I remember when growing up that ANGER was a very bad thing. We had to hold it inside. It was better for us to explode privately verses allowing the emotion to flow and be complete with it. Many times in life we live our adult lives based on the beliefs from childhood.

I have the privilege of having a friend who rarely gets angry. I love being around their energy as life is just one adventure after another. For what ever reason they did not learn that anger was a bad emotion and is able today to laugh at it and just keep flowing on.

Day 58: Volcanoes, how do I deal with anger and frustration? Do I have an evacuation plan? Do I know how to laugh at myself?

When I think about anger today I enjoy the connection to a volcano erupting. So often in life I have missed the connection to my human experience with that of nature. When I can look, experience, and walk around on an eruption as I have in Hawaii. I began to realize that it can indeed create an environment yet it will take decades for it to be inhabitable.

When I look at things in nature I begin to see the devastation that an eruption can have in my life, and the impact that it has on the lives around me as well. Today with the scientific brilliance that we have, we can detect when a volcano is about to erupt and we can move into evacuation mode. Do I want to move, do I want to go, do I want to survive, or better yet do I want to thrive? Many times in life I am so frustrated about being displaced that I forget that I am alive and can from this now moment build a new life. While the other option is most likely extinction.

I was part of an amazing workshop once in which we learned to laugh for no reason other than laughing. Why? It is a great and powerful tool to have in our toolbox of life. Why? One of the best ways to break the hold of anger in our lives is to start laughing at the situation as if we were watching a comedy on TV. We laugh at the way others look when they are acting out a role of angry, frustrated, and are pouting on television all the time. Why not do it for ourselves? Next time you are angry just start laughing and really laugh with your whole body. Laugh so hard your stomach hurts. Poof the anger is gone.

Out bodies are equipped with emotion so that we can maneuver the landscape of our lives. We are not meant to take up residence in our emotions. They were designed to flow. Who wants to leave paradise? A great deal of our anger comes from the fact we are being evacuated from the emotion of happiness, or joy and we feel angry about it. When in fact our lives are not meant to be frozen in time. They are meant to be lived, expressed, and experienced.

Lean to know the warning signs and have an evacuation plan. I love you! Rev Allen