The Shoe and the Pebble

I say all the time that lessons come in levels. At first, it can appear so small that you just miss it all together. Looking at what someone else has done or didn't do. Thinking to yourself if only this person would grow up and act their age. All the time you are putting the focus outside of yourself and making someone else responsible for your happiness and wellbeing. I say to folks all the time when you teach, mentor, or coach make sure the pants you are making yourself feel comfortable and that you can actually wear them. The pebble reminded me to look at what it is in life that is causing me to be off center? How do I release this annoyance, let it go, and move on? How can I show up in the world as love on a deeper level with a pebble in my shoe? As a child I would always hear about the speck in someone else's eye versus the log in my own. To me the pebble and the speck have a great deal in common. It is easy to miss and easy to put the power outside of ourselves and focus on blame, hurt, anger, or resentment. Today I know and understand that if I walk around long enough with a pebble in my shoe I will adjust to it. It will however show up in my personality and mood.  

Day 13: Rocks, find a pebble of your choosing and put it in your shoe. Walk around for a minute and journal about the experience.

Guess who had a pebble in their shoe yesterday? Guess who couldn't find it and yet when I started walking there it was reminding me of the lesson for today. What are you willing to let go in order to move forward?

At first, I questioned what it was that was in my shoe? You know that feeling that something just doesn't feel right, and you ask yourself what is that? You take your shoe off shake it out and feel around on the inside of the shoe only to find that you don't feel it. You assume that it is fallen out and you put your shoe back on...Only to find that it is still very much present. Darn it!

I took my shoe off two or three times looking for this invisible pebble. I could feel it moving around and creating havoc within my emotional wellbeing. It is funny that something that feels so tiny can have such an amazing impact on our lives. Then you realize the life lesson. What resentment, petty comment, or word that someone said or didn't say have I allowed to move around in my life creating havoc within my emotions?

I talk about this a great deal with clients and at the Amor Spiritual Center. I can't tell you the number of times that people who are on a spiritual path have taken something personally and before you know it they are no longer a part of a loving community because of a pebble they have allowed to grow in to a bolder. As a child one of my favorite sayings from my mom was "You are making a mountain out of a mole hill."

The experience I had yesterday was just what I needed to remind me that I always have a choice in how I receive things. It doesn't matter the intention, or what someone meant. What really matters to my well being is how I receive it. My beloved had this wonderful outlook. What ever anyone says to him, he takes it as a compliment and says thank you. Talk about giving the pebble back to the person that or thing that gave it to you. Let's make this point clear. The lesson is to let go. Remove or release the irritant, learn the lesson, and move on.

I did indeed find the pebble, I got the lesson, and I am now moving on.

I love you,

Rev Allen​