Saturday, July 11, 2015

I am in the process of restoring my life.


The definition of restoring that I align with is " To bring back to an original or normal condition." For the longest time I understood restoring to be giving me all the things I had lost, or that was taken from me. When in fact today I understand that each day I am restoring myself to the truth of who I really am. When I set out on this journey of life I had a purpose for coming here in this physical form. There were lessons that I wanted to learn and that I had a greater purpose. Today I know that being love is my purpose and I spend each day living love to the best of my ability. The lessons will take care of themselves and if I greet them with love and compassion I will find them much easier to embrace.  

Day 81: Restoration, Thank you for loving yourself enough to transform your life. Thank you for believing in yourself. You are worth the investment. Thank you for taking this 90 day journey with me. Over the final few days, together, fill your journal with five things each day that you are grateful for.

My beloved and I are reading a book about abundance and part of the book's practice is to meditation on 10 passages one each day for 40 days. During this process, you will create a new consciousness around abundance and prosperity. One of the passages talks about restoring all the things that have been taken from you. At first, I had some push back against this passage. Then I sat with it and allowed my resistance to fade into questions. Words only have power when I give them power.

Do I really want all the things that have gone from my life taken or otherwise? It reminds me of that question if I could go back to being 20 years old with all the knowledge I have now would I do it? My answer has always been no. I love where I am today and I love the path that I have taken to get here. Yes, it has been challenging at times, and what I have felt at the time to be overwhelming. Yet I know that each step, has in fact brought me closer to the expression of love that I have come here to be.

For me, the restorative process is about the remembering who I really am. Letting go of the outside focus and brining it within to find that all the answers I have been seeking were inside all along. To remember that I have an internal knowing that is always showing me the path home. The awareness that home is here, in this now moment. When I find myself at this moment, I know that I am restored. When I can be at peace in the here, and now that is when I am free.

I am so thrilled with this journey that we have been on for the last 81 days. I am grateful that this is the third time I have read this book and done the work. In the process my life has indeed transformed in a major way. Today I see beauty and goodness in all things. Today I focus my energy on the now moment and express myself as best I can. Today I thrive in the here and now. Today I know that any answers I need to be within. Today I know the miracle that nature holds within is the same power that I have within me. Today I know that I have been restored to my true self, and for that I am deeply grateful.

5 things I am grateful for.
I see the miracles in nature.
I live in the here and now more than ever.
I look for good in others and in within myself.
I love who I see each day in the mirror.
I loved myself enough to take this journey over the last 81 days.

I love you!

Rev Allen 

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